I celebrate the holiday of Thanksgiving. This may surprise those people who wonder what Native Americans think of this official U.S. celebration of the survival of early arrivals in a European invasion that culminated in the death of 10 million to 30 million native people.
Thanksgiving to me has never been about Pilgrims. When I was 6, my mother, a woman of the Dineh nation, told my sister and me not to sing "land of the Pilgrims' pride" in "America the Beautiful." Our people, she said, had been here much longer and taken much better care of the land. We were to sing "land of the Indians' pride" instead.
I was proud to sing the new lyrics in school, but I sang softly. It was enough for me to know the difference. At 6, I felt I had learned something very important. As a child of a Native American family, you are part of a very select group of survivors.
When the Pilgrims came to Plymouth Rock, they were poor and hungry -- half of them died within a few months from disease and hunger. When Squanto, a Wampanoag man, found them, they were in a pitiful state. Their English crops had failed. The native people fed them through the winter and taught them how to grow their food.
These were not merely "friendly Indians." They were wary -- but it was their way to give freely to those who had nothing. Among many of our peoples, showing that you can give without holding back is the way to earn respect.
To the Pilgrims, and most English and European peoples, the Wampanoags were heathens, and of the devil. They saw Squanto not as an equal but as an instrument of their God to help his chosen people, themselves.
Since that initial sharing, Native American food has spread around the world. Nearly 70 percent of all crops grown today were originally cultivated by Native American peoples. I sometimes wonder what they ate in Europe before they met us. Spaghetti without tomatoes? Meat without potatoes? And at the "first Thanksgiving," the Wampanoags provided most of the food -- and signed a treaty granting Pilgrims the right to the land at Plymouth, the real reason for the first Thanksgiving.
What did the Europeans give in return? Within 20 years, European disease and treachery had decimated the Wampanoags. Some estimate that diseases accounted for a death toll reaching 90 percent in some Native American communities. By 1623, Mather the elder, a Pilgrim leader, was giving thanks to his God for destroying the heathen savages to make way "for a better growth," meaning his people.
In stories told by the Dakota people, an evil person always keeps his or her heart in a secret place separate from the body. The hero must find that secret place and destroy the heart to stop the evil.
I see, in the "first Thanksgiving" story, a hidden Pilgrim heart. The story of that heart is the real tale than needs to be told. We have seen the evil that it caused in the 350 years since. Genocide, environmental devastation, poverty, world wars, racism.
Where is the hero who will destroy that heart of evil? I believe it must be each of us. Indeed, when I give thanks this Thursday and I cook my native food, I will be thinking of this hidden heart and how my ancestors survived the evil it caused.
Because if we can survive, with our ability to share and to give intact, then the evil and the goodwill that met that Thanksgiving Day in the land of the Wampanoag will have come full circle.
And the healing can begin.
Jacqueline Keeler, a member of the Dineh Nation and the Yankton Dakota Sioux, works with the American Indian Child Resource Center in Oakland, Calif. Her work has appeared in Winds of Change, an American Indian journal.